Have you ever felt?

Have you ever felt that even God is so good, you still keep distance from Him?
Have you ever felt that even you know that God always cares for you, you are still doubt Him in every cases?
Have you ever felt that even Bible says everyone is welcomed in His Kingdom, you feel you don't deserve it?
Have you ever felt that God has hidden motive when He helps you when actually He has the world and He needs nothing from you except your heart?
Have you ever felt that even you don't want to admit it but He is the only one whom you can trust?
Have you ever thought that God will be bored with your childishness and stubborness, one day He will leave you? And when the time has come, what will you do?