Uneg-Uneg

Uneg-uneg is a slang word meaning sth (usu. issue/ problem) that bothers one. And here's mine.

My friends and I are planning to go to Nias this coming holiday. Nias is a small island located beside Sumatra island. She's becoming more infamous because of earthquake and tsunami effects. Nevertheless, She's also a gorgeous island! Amazingly and naturally beautiful!

But...

The tradition is still strong in Nias. Some of the tribes do not welcome outsiders yet. State laws is not as strong as the norms there. So, some people who are attracted by her beauty feel hesitant to visit her. In addition to that, with some recurrent disasters there, government is reluctant to rebuild or beautify or upgrade her. What a waste huh?

And, after all of the fact, Why do I still want to go there?

Good question. I am still thinking about that too. As far as I am an explorer (I wish), I think it's more about ego/ pride. When one says I should not go there, I feel more urge to go. Look how stubborn I am...

My brother is extremely concerned about me (I thank you bro for your concern. I really do. Sorry that I am too stubborn) persuading me NOT to go, when at almost the same time, he is going to Nias too. He stated that it's dangerous for FEMALES to go around, while it's ok for MALE. I'm not a feminist, but when you talk to me about what I can and cannot do, I am just fed up and disappointed and sad.

I really want to go to prove that it's safe for outsiders to visit Nias. And I do not want to go and make all my family members worry about me. But I will still go! People may say I am stubborn, I am too proud, I gamble with my life. But I pray every night for God's protection over us. Amen. I don't know to whom I should trust on this case, except Him.