How Arrogant Can You Be?

Yes, to what extent is arrogance allowed in oneself?
Not at all, a pinch of it, a teaspoon of it, or a whole world?
I myself allow it conquers over me as big as the whole world. It just eats me alive. It hinders me from being a better person, from socializing with others, from others'blessing, and especially from God's blessing on me.
I just clearly remember how arrogant I can be recently. Defining arrogance, arrogance/ pride is, depending on the context, either a high sense of the worth of one's self or one's own or a pleasure taken in the contemplation of these things, according to Wikipedia.
I tried to analyze myself from my childhood (since I am a psychology graduate, I think It's ok to get free evaluation on myself from myself) which makes me so arrogant. I can't find one. (am I being arrogant too for stating nothing's wrong with me?). But being as objective as I want to be, there's no special events that trigger me to be an arrogant person. I am an extremely ordinary person with no extraordinary wishes. But there's the deal, if I am a simple person, why do I claim myslef as an arrogant person? Haikz, I feel so confused myself.
Is it arrogant to do your best 100% till asking other's help will be your last option?
I don't think so. But many think so.
For better thought, which is more arrogant to keep doing the best you can do continuosly or to do your best at a time and leave it to The Supreme to handle?

Have you ever felt?

Have you ever felt that even God is so good, you still keep distance from Him?
Have you ever felt that even you know that God always cares for you, you are still doubt Him in every cases?
Have you ever felt that even Bible says everyone is welcomed in His Kingdom, you feel you don't deserve it?
Have you ever felt that God has hidden motive when He helps you when actually He has the world and He needs nothing from you except your heart?
Have you ever felt that even you don't want to admit it but He is the only one whom you can trust?
Have you ever thought that God will be bored with your childishness and stubborness, one day He will leave you? And when the time has come, what will you do?

The 'Arrogant' Me

Lately, I feel that I am being arrogant and stubborn again. I am fully aware that I am arrogant and stubborn, I don't like it, but I still act that way. 

Rom. 19-20: For the good that I would I do not: but the evil which I would not, that I do. Now if I do that I would not, it is no more I that do it, but sin that dwelleth in me.

I think many people misintepret these verses and use them as a great excuse to commit sin, and I am one of them. It's so annoying and tiring to be in that situation. You want to break it, but somehow deep inside you feel the 'comfort' there. 

Hbr 10: 26-27: For if we sin wilfully after that we have received the knowledge of the truth, there remaineth no more sacrifice for sins, But a certain fearful looking for of judgment and fiery indignation, which shall devour the adversaries.

Rom 12: 11 - Not slothful in business; fervent in spirit; serving the Lord.

Improvement!

I'm amazed with my own technology improvement lately. I am kind of person who dislike complicated things - computer is one of them (though humans create computer to simplify their life). But to be very honest I don't know JAVA, html, or whatever it is, seriously I'm not trying to be proud of my stupidity. But lately, I upgrade my blog with some lists and slideshows. I know they are small things, but finally I made it! (though till now I don't know how to change my header). JIa you! And please guide me :)

When kids go green

It was April's theme (yeah, I know it's late for months) actually: Earth Day. Students were introduced to global warming, deforestation, recycle. It's such as a big theme for them to understand, I think, but they grabbed the idea of it, I'm amazed. So, we went to nearest greenest place around our school - Tzu Chi. Though I'm not Buddhist, but I have to admit I respect this organization. Teachers were excited, and so were students. 

Group pic! Celestine was not there, instead Jodie (from Rhino class) represented her 

Tzu Chi workers explained about what things can be recycled

Ms Irene reexplained it in English :) to make sure they really got it

While Ms Irene was busy explaining about recycling, Edward was busy too explaining it to his pal

It's sorting time! Paper here! Cans there! Plastic over there!

Chris helped his earth by recycling his paper

I hope there are more awareness actions held to help our earth, not only for adults but also for kids. 

When Holiday comes and students go...

So, here it is, the end of school and the beginning of the holiday. I've been here for two times at another education center, but I didn't have this feeling. But this is the first time when I feel so sad to leave my students, though I will see them for the next term again since we still use the same building.

Kids are really 'something'. One day they are the cutest kids in the world till you wanna bring them home. Another day, they can be the most horrible monsters till you wish you never wanna get married and give birth to one. But at the end of the day, they are just loveable kids. 

Waiting for turn to take graduation pic (this's so much better though)

Kartini's Day

Holiday O Holiday

Holiday is a week away now. Near-yet-so-far feeling is over me. I want it so much yet I don't think I'm ready for it. Bali trip which was supposed to be the most anticipating one now becomes the most messy, unorganized, headache trip. Three heads are good for synergy when they have one vision, but when vision fades three heads make more destruction. It's so sad to prepare myself that it's not gonna be an exciting trip. But, am I willing to let it go just like that? My fave resort, I'm gonna make it the best trip! Too exaggerating? Nope.  

An Angel says, 'Never borrow from the future. If you worry about what may happen tomorrow and it doesn't happen, you have worried in vain. Even if it does happen, you have to worry twice.'